Lady Gaga is amazing- talented for days, beautiful and has great taste in clothes.
Did I mention her songwriting?
I’m drawn to songs with a lot of meaning or that make me think a lot. “A Million Reasons” does both.
I have very deep trust issues. I don’t let people close to me these days without a lot of work involved. After losing people that I thought were my friends and then losing Jordan, the last person I ever thought would turn on me, I just shut down.
Before those people messed up, however, there was Matthew. There were major issues with things that he said to me- he was plain mean most of the time, and then he would go back and try to be nice. I would have to pick out which parts to believe and not believe. I lost the ability to trust him and my instincts.
This is a really bad place to be inside your mind. You don’t know who you can trust, so you don’t trust anyone.
I’m still working on this one. It’s not as easy as it looks and definitely not fun. There has been a lot of progress with Matthew. You can read my post The Reality Check to find out more.
I don’t feel the need to pick apart every little thing people tell me anymore, thanks to a lot of therapy. I keep my circle of friends small and I am happy with that.