I have decided to restructure my book reviews a bit. I hope you enjoy it, please let me know what you think in the comments!
Title and why I chose this book:
“I’m Just Happy to Be Here”
I chose this memoir for these reasons: I love memoirs, and I thought that this one would be a good one. It looked interesting and I was absolutely right.
Who do I think this book is intended for?
It is probably good for anyone that is currently experiencing issues with drinking, reflecting on their past or is close to someone that has either of those issues. It may create a better understanding of that person’s thought patterns.
What I liked:
I loved Janelle’s honesty. It’s all over the memoir, from beginning to end. I also like how she discusses her childhood and what led to her drinking, not just starting with the drinking. I enjoyed her vulnerability because that is important in a story like this.
What I didn’t like:
The story’s timeline jumped around a bit. That’s the only thing that bothered me.
Janelle grew up with her mom. She was a Mormon, whose family converted after missionaries showed up at their door. Her mom became inactive later (this means she stopped attending services and didn’t go on a mission) but when Janelle was 9, she was baptized into the Church.
As a teen, she started questioning the Church, as many teens do. She didn’t believe that she was the good person that everyone thought she was, plus, she hated the rules.
For sheer example, I’ve seen an older version of the BYU honor code (circa 2003) and it was not easy for me to consider living by, but then, I also wasn’t raised Mormon. At some point, Janelle started experimenting with drugs and alcohol.
This eventually equated to drinking wine while making dinner. She would drink while cooking and then have a cocktail with dinner. I used to make dinner with a glass of Pepsi of juice with a splash of Fireball. The kids knew not to touch my glass.
She discusses a difficult experience with PPD, which borderlined on psychotic, which she was medicated for. After she and her husband moved out, she began counting down the hours until she could drink.
There is something comforting about knowing when you will feel better about your day, or maybe your whole life. This used to be in the form of alcohol for me. Now, it’s probably yoga or writing.
Janelle’s story takes many twists and turns throughout four pregnancies (yes, she does stay sober throughout) and her tumultuous marriage. I was intrigued throughout and read it over a weekend because I couldn’t stop.
It wasn’t until her second child was 6 months old and she relapsed that she began to think that she could possibly be an alcoholic.
Does Janelle get a happy ending? Find her book online or at a local library. I don’t want to spoil it for you!
Quotes that I loved:
“It made it worse because I knew he simply did not have what I needed.”
At one point, my husband did not have what I needed. I needed to know that I was a good mom, person and not just a sex doll. I needed more than just my own strength.
My depression became a lot worse once I realized that he did not have it in him to give me what I needed. My drinking also got a lot worse.
In case you can’t tell, I highly recommend this book. Come back for next month’s pick!